9/30 Things Before Leaving 30: Let Me Be Unpredictable

I am having a hard time sleeping early lately, and that means dozing off at 2am and waking up at 11am. Well, technically I wake up at 10 but I get up at 11. Haha. Because we all need that extra hour to stay in bed and figure out the things we need to do for the day, right?

Okay. Maybe not all of us.

My current body clock is messing up my productivity and I am not liking it. I am slowly forgetting what it’s like to do chores in the morning like cleaning the house, and spending some time at the rooftop, reading a book. I believe some things are best done in the morning, and I think I am missing out a lot in my routine because I wake up at almost noon. But who’s to blame anyway? This thing frustrates me, but not so much that it drags all the joy and positivity in me.

I know it’s a bit hard to find our daily rhythm these days. We are all adjusting because the world is changing. And I think the adjustment period varies. You don’t have to be too hard on yourself. Humans are complex beings. But most of the time we try to fit ourselves in a certain mold, thinking that it’s what we should do. I used to believe in that for many years but I learned in the process that I won’t ever fit in a mold, if I was made to be different.

Have you ever seen the same sunset twice in your life? Nope. Because that is impossible. I mean, it could look the same, sure, but it’s not. Sunset varies everyday because of many different factors. Can you imagine seeing the same sunset everyday in your life? I cannot. I suppose if we try to see people the way we see sunsets, life would be totally different. Because we don’t ask the sun to set the same. We allow it to be lovely, to be boring, or simply be unpredictable. We don’t box it in a concept of what sunsets should be like. You see, I could go on and pour out my thoughts about sunsets and people, but I won’t. Let me be unpredictable.

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